The Danger of Religious Blogging

I have not been updating this blog because I’ve found myself obsessing over how long it’s been since one of my blog posts has been featured on QuakerQuaker. I’ll write a post, think “Surely this post is so inspirational and moving that it’ll be QuakerQuakered”, and then am inevitably disappointed when it does not. Posting on here to be QuakerQuakered is not why I created this blog. This blog isn’t about my ego; or, at least, it shouldn’t be. It’s not about whether anyone else finds what I say interesting or thought-provoking or inspirational.

It’s about encouraging me to keep a written record of where I am on my spiritual path so that I am better able to discern where I’m going. It’s about becoming more comfortable sharing my faith with people I don’t know and whose faiths inevitably will differ to some degree. It’s not about announcing to the world how spiritual or how faithful or how Christian or how Quaker or how Buddhist I am. It’s about offering my faith to the scrutiny of others so that it is tempered and strengthened.

Unless God calls me to do otherwise, I will not be updating this blog again until I can post an entry without wondering if it will be featured on QuakerQuaker. Please read my livejournal for updates on my life (and, recently, for updates on Sugar, my Siamese cat, whose kidneys are starting to fail her). I will continue to comment on blogs and check QuakerQuaker and I hope to see you all on here again soon.

Advertisements

6 Comments

Filed under blogs, discernment, ego, leadings, pride, quakerism, QuakerQuaker

6 responses to “The Danger of Religious Blogging

  1. Hi FF, oh no. This is the second time I’ve heard someone say they weren’t going to blog because they were getting obsessed over QuakerQuaker. QQ is subjective and quite random–my part of the updating depends a lot on how crazy the work and kid schedule is and what crisis I’m managing when I see a post.

    But perhaps that’s besides the point–the underlying issue seems to be a worry about blogging for ego, right? That can be a snare, certainly. I don’t separate my personal and Quaker blogs so when I start smelling the air of my own pomposity I turn QuakerRanter to more personal storytelling.
    Your Friend, Martin

  2. Oy! Permit me to express my relief at hearing another person who struggles with this! (Sorry, Martin–you don’t have do be doing anything wrong for at least _this_ Quaker blogger to sometimes lose her bearings!) It is so very satisfying to get a nod from QuakerQuaker, and even more so to get two or three intelligent comments from people I really respect, that I confess, I do sometimes hear a little voice in the back of my head speculating over the “QQ Quotient” of a post as I’m composing it.

    I honestly have no idea how weighty and public Friends manage to keep their balance! It is so easy to get pulled off course, and be writing to please or impress or just to _try_ to be “spiritual” today, when maybe what I really am today is in need of cleaning out the ugly stuff at the back of the fridge.

    I hope your hiatus is short, because, whether or not you get QQ’ed, you’re one of my favorite bloggers… not because you’re perfect, but because you’re so good at being real. I’ll miss your words here (and maybe hop on over to your LiveJournal, and certainly think good thoughts about your kitty) but I’m going to hope you find a way to climb back onto this particular tiger and ride it. But I can understand wanting to make sure this blog stays close to its root, and I really respect you for doing what you need to do.

    Bright blessings…

  3. Oh, hey, QQ has ignored me, too, these last few months; and its list of “Quaker Events on the Blogs” has ignored the events I’ve been reporting on. I’ve just figured the folks at QQ are distracted, more or less as Martin describes.

    My personal attitude is, being ignored by QQ is not something to worry about, because if you and I are writing stuff that other people genuinely find helpful, people will find their way to it sooner or later — via Google, via recommendations on each other’s blog or journal sites (you know you’re recommended on mine — right, Tania?), via word of mouth, via our yearly meetings if our yearly meetings are supportive of its member/bloggers, or in whatever fashion.

    So it’s the quality of what we offer to others that matters — not what QQ says or does. Or anyway, that’s what I think, and what I try to live by.

    I’ve sensed that you have a drawing to the ministry, which your blog is expressive of. I’ve felt genuine spiritual seeking in your postings, and it has kept me reading them avidly ever since you started. In the short time you’ve been blogging, I’ve seen you go through real changes regarding your understanding of religion and your relationship to it, and I’ve seen you deepening through those changes. It’s been grand to watch, I’ve cheered you on from the sidelines, and I’ve prayed for you too.

    If you now need a break to re-center and regain detachment, I’m all for it. But I do hope you’ll be very careful about keeping faith with the Source that drew you to do this in the first place.

    I think of the parable of the Seed, and how Christ didn’t think much of cases where the Seed fell on shallow ground, and sprang up richly at first, but couldn’t sustain itself. We cannot bear good fruit unless we let ourselves be ground that is properly plowed up — broken and torn apart to great depth, so that the roots of the growing Seed can work their way in to great depth. Being broken and torn apart to great depth, hurts to great depth, and I think what you are going through, vis-à-vis QQ, might perhaps be some of that sort of pain. But if so, it’s a process worth enduring to the end. Reach out to those of us who can help you endure it, my friend. We’re here, and we believe in you.

  4. Thank you all for your comments.

    Martin: It’s not QQ that was/is the problem: it’s me. When I first started blogging years ago, I was obsessed with getting comments. The obsession with QQ stems from the same source: my need to be admired and for my ego to be fed. I did feel called to write today and was able to leave that obsession behind, so I am hopeful that I can return to more frequent blogging soon.

    Cat: When I read your reply, I was relieved to know I’m not the only one who has these kinds of struggles. And thank you so much for what you said about my blogging. (Though I did find it ironic that in a post where I berate my obsession with ego I received compliments from two bloggers whose opinions I value highly! :P)

    Marshall: How do you always know exactly what to say? Thank you so much for helping me return to the Source that guided me to this blog in the first place. Sometimes my pride clothes itself in my faith and your comment made me aware of the possibility that avoiding blogging could also be an act of ego! Your last paragraph was especially poignant and really resonated with what I’m dealing with right now. I sincerely hope that if I am ever where you are or you are ever where I am that we can worship together.

  5. Well, I don’t always know exactly what to say. I often put my foot in my mouth.

    But I’m going through some intense and scary crises in my own life at present, and those crises have put me in an emotional condition where I’m clinging tightly to the voice of Christ my Guide in my heart and conscience. You’re not the only one to have remarked that this has made me a bit more discerning. But I suspect it’s probably only a temporary condition, which will fade when my crises are resolved.

    Believe me, if we are ever in the same place, I will be delighted. I will want to talk with you!

  6. I came by this post again. Tania, if it’s any consolation comments on my blog have really dried up. I don’t know if its summertime or blogging fatigue but it seems like posts on the Quakosphere either get fifty comments or none.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s